'Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to a better understanding of ourselves.'

GEORGE GEORGE GEORGE GEORGE GEORGE!

Happy now? ;)

Aghem...Monday at the Safari was great and Ben came out with a classic as usual: Me - 'well, we;re going to be able to feed the animals out of the windows!' Ben - 'I don't want no giraffe lickin' my Dock car!' We fed deer and giraffes which followed our car, and a zebra tried to enter the vehicle also!

This week has been a good one. Haven't said that in a while. Good good good.

The Old Ways

...are not entirely lost...

'Jack, do you never sleep?
Does the green still run deep in your heart?
Or will these changing times,
motorways, powerlines,
keep us apart?
Well, I don't think so:
I saw some grass growing through the pavements today.'

Ride on

I also want Pagan Purity by Elvenking to be part of my funeral. Sod it, I'll have a whole compilation CD. Donations at the door please.

Today confirmed that true friendship transcends time and distance.

Yesterday confirmed that these are NOT the tablets for me.

Tomorrow...who knows. Babysitting all day and we might take the kiddles to the Safari Park. We'll see how much it costs first though! That's right, there are no beaches in the midlands but they have Safari Parks - the mind boggles.

Would the neighbours really mind if I played the tin whistle at this hour? ...

...Damn it, thought so :(

I want Tull's 'Life's a long song' played at my funeral.

Just for the record.

Last night I came back from Kent after seeing my wifey play her first proper gig. Ialmost cried fro pride, I'm so sodding soppy. Anyway, it was a great first gig and we look forward to more from the faerie herself!

I have a kitten on my shoulder. I'm a girlie pirate.

The fact that this has anything to do with Michal Jackson or his pet rat is irrelevant. This is for my nephew, my boy, my bestest buddy, for Ben.



The lyrics are so poignant. Especially as he gets older, people see Ben's cheek and not Ben himself. Also, his dispraxia means that sometimes he really is 'running here and there'! Ben brings me to life. Here's to you, you 'plinky-plonk'.

'God only knows what I'd be without you'

I've just had a long, girly chat with Jo. Some people are so important to me and it's not scary...it's the best feeling in the world.

'following the footsteps of a ragdoll dance'

Oh Siouxsie. So many memories attached to your influence on my teenage years.

History is a weapon to be used against your own prejudice

Today saw family, kiddlies and sunshine. This was a good thing. It was wonderful to see Kevin after such a long time.

I'm astounded by the palpable presence of racism from some parts of the city I live in. It makes me physically sick and I refuse to accept these opinions and remain silent about them. I always reply harshly to racist comments and I don't give a fuck if it gets me in trouble. Pfft. I'm too angry to write about this subject sanely or logically.

By the way, Journey = yay. Stadium rock wins today.

So what is there for little ol' me to write about now? I refrain from jabbering on about anything psychiatry related because I refuse to let any illnesses I have define me. It's just something I'm battling through, like cancer or the flu.

I learnt today that in some parts of the world people are still sentenced to death for just a suspicion of witchcraft. Why am I surprised by this? Amin, Pot, Stalin, Hitler: you ain't got nothing on Christianity.

That is all.

'Eyes that watch the morning star seem a little brighter'

I hate to complain about the NHS. We're so lucky to have something even close to our health system in comparison to many other countries but you know what? I'm going to complain anyway, because when you hear your doctor talking on the phone to a health professional and telling them that the matter is urgent and they must get in touch immediately, you do not expect to wait over a month for a letter telling you an appointment is available over a month from then. I rang them at this point to tell them that when my doctor said this issue is important, it really is important, so they gave me an earlier appointment and I waited two weeks for that letter. They've now put that appointment back. I will make my feelings strongly known when I arrive at the appointment, although I suppose I ought to bloody pray it happens at all.

RANT OVER.

Cor, I haven't listened to Morrissey in ages. *dances*

Tonight I spoke to Ewan on the phone for quite a while. Those kids are like a boiling, steaming pot of energy from which I can drink. Not in an I'MAGOFF psychic vampire type way but in a grounding, inspiring kind of way.

I've also realised that people (including me) use the exclamation mark way too much. It is only supposed to be used for an indication of a command, or extreme emotion or astonishment. So there. Stick that in your punctuation pipe and smoke it. Actually, I'd bloody love a punctuation pipe - those of you who know me well will be all too aware I'd be an addict.

I think that's enough for tonight. Hazel and Kevin are visiting soon with the squiddleyiddleykiddleys and I physically can't wait to see them all! <-extreme excitement.

'Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.'

'Don't wanna be a hollow man'

Richard Cribben. You were the first resident I really took to at Lennox Wood. Many people didn't understand you but to this day, you were wonderful to me.

I wish I could have known you when you were of stable mind and under less stressful circumstances.

You are not forgotten. You fought for your country but the fight for your mind you lost and I wish I could have done more.

I hope you can hear me.

Wherever you are.