'...and nothing is as bad as it seems.'
So how does one do it? How do we save people? When they've fallen into the cadavarous depths of their own mind or their own depression? You can't. You just bloody can't. Everything my friends and family did for me when I was there, lost to my own blackness, it didn't even touch the surface. There I was at the bottom and even if they tried to climb in it only felt as though they were calling softly down to me from way above. Nobody can throw you a ladder, you have to make your own. Because I know the above, I also know that I should not feel guilty for not being able to save her. But that makes it all the more painful. I would die for her. But even that wouldn't help. So what now?
I can try to show her the hope that glimmered to me in corners of that dark, stifling room long ago but everybody finds hope in different things, different music, different words...if any at all. All I can do is offer a shoulder, a hand, a home, a heart but it feels like nothing. I suppose if I was a Christian I would pray to God. Pray for her and feel less guilty about being able to do nothing for her. Or if I believed in the Gods and Goddesses I'd ask for their guidance, not just guidance for me to help her but guidance for her as well. Maybe I'll just throw it out there...'hello?!'...'HelllooOOOOOO!?'....'If you're there, whatever and however you are, soothe her. Please. Make her feel happy. Sweep away the black cloud and murder the black dog for good. Make her happy. Make her happy....
please.'
3 comments:
Wow. Spot-on sis. You got what its liked being depressed and helping those depressed down to a T. I used to fall for problem ladies and so far the only way I foubd of boosting them is to lay down flat and have them walk right over me... not very healthy at all. So yeah, remind them there is light at the end of the tunnel, make them aware of their own tools and internal resources, and leave the rest to them.
Hope things are cool. Love and light x
It's nice to know somebody understands. J00 are Womanmonster's hubby ain'tcha? Can't remember your name on MW though *ashamed*
Thank you for your comment, fellow Britanian!
Jxx
Yup that be me. It interesting to know that when the girlies know that I'm taken they can't remember my name!!
Against the Tide chickadee... Reading through a couple of bloggies you share alot of experiences as I do and feel the same joys, pleasures, fears and pains - except you can paint it much better than I can. Its like you have a single-haired paintbrush and I have waterballoons filled with paint - yeah, I'd kick your ass at paintball but you can describe complicated feelings much better than I.
Keep on blogging. Ciao
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