I knew it would be hard to leave Ben and Ewan but now I'm actually living the distance...and it's horrid.

I want Ewan to call me in his soft voice and ask me a question about football that I couldn't answer even if I had the internet infront of me, I want Ben to look up at me with those intense, brilliant blue eyes and say something cheeky but hilarious at the same time, I want to sit on the sofa and have them run, jump and dance around me oozing that special energy that only children emit. I want bath-times and silly walks and afternoon giggles and squishy cuddles and bed-time stories. I want my boys :(

I cannot imagine what it must be like to have your own children and not being able to see them all the time. It must be five-hundred times harder than this.

Poosticks :(